Good morning

Its 6:45 am and I'm getting ready to go to work ; just to have another boring day at work, as you see lately I can't find anything interesting . I woke up at 5:00 am though I slept late, I was chatting with one of my friends , she was the birthday girl, she was sparking and shinning since yesterday morning and I felt she's really enjoying her day, and somehow I wished I can feel the same and just to get rid of everything makes me sad. Two days ago I couldn't bare staying at work , so I returned home at 11 am or may be earlier I can't remember exactly, I felt I don't wanna talk to anyone and I'm not welcoming any kinda chat with anyone. Once I got into my room before I even change my cloths I opened my closet and I got rid of most of my cloths , I almost have an empty closet now, all to the charity foundation I don't want them ; even my shoes most of them are new, I felt I don't want them and they just carry awful and sad memories and I don't wanna feel I'm sorrounded with such ,,
Actually I feel very sad and I'm afraid I'm breaking down because I have no one no one by my side ..
Anyway, I g2g now otherwise I'll be late to work
Have a good day