Nightmare !

Since I woke up this morning and I’m not feeling good at all, moreover, I had a scary nightmare which made me wake up several times at night
It was really scary, though that shouldn’t affect my mood; but somehow it does. I was wearing red dress and wanted to show it to my mother
And I was going to her and she was surrounded by my aunties and somehow my red dress turned into pink color, and I was thinking I wasn’t wearing
This one!..and a workmate was there sitting on a chair in the corridor and I was looking at myself in the mirror and I was wearing ugly make up and my
Right eye looked sick, I was trying to fix my make up .

So I left the ladies room and I got back to my mum , something made me go back to the ladies room and there I was shocked, I looked at myself in the mirror
And my right eye disappeared I was shouting “Oh my God where is my eye? What happened to my eye” and while I was walking away from the mirror I notice my
Eye in the floor there I couldn’t pick it up and I was crying, I ran to my mum and I was telling her that my eye fill down and I want to return it back, then I saw my sister picking it
Up from the floor and put it in a piece of newspaper and it color turned into gray.

All that time my workmate was sitting in the corridor and watching me and did nothing !..this nightmare bothered me, I felt I was suffocating when I opened my eyes
I wanted to take a breath in ,,, I don’t know what was that, is it a reflection of my thoughts or is it because I had Vernal conjunctivitis or what..
That really scares uff..

Have a nice day bloggers!

Weathering heights

I'm living my life through Cathrena Eranshow of "weathering heights" novel; when she and Hethicliff "her lover" were suffering. He tortured her unintentionally and she did the same to him ...
I'm in love with my way hethicliff but from different age, with his strong personality,and love of isolation; actually there's a quite similarities between my Dad and Hethicliff. These similarities are between their characters exactly " before Hethicliff feels he lost Cathrena".

He was very loving and devoted to Cathrena but all his love turned in to anger when she got married to Ad and left him; though he knew she wasn't in love with Ad and she was suffering because she loves Hethicliff. I adore the way they loved each other, especially when Hethicliff sneaked to the Thrushcrose grange to see her before she dies and how he hugged her tight regardless that he was pretending he doesn't care about her and he hates her.

Very beautiful and that shows how they were in love with each other. Hethicliff and Daddy's similarities are in the lovely loving side which I adore most, but in the same time reflected on me and Cathrena when they hurt us unintentionally,, by their ignorance, carelessness sometimes, distance, these hurt a lot :( .. I don't want to be Cathrena because I'm not her and he's not Hethicliff ,, all what I know is he's away and I miss him. I know he has issues but still I feel I want to be with him.
I don't know ; everything in my mind is messed up ..

Good night bloggers

Life

Life is just a road, we have to take and follow whether we liked it or not; we are not always have the chance nor the choice to select what we want or where we are going. Sometimes we feel life is very easy and we can understand it, moreover we know how to take the right decisions, but most of the time we feel ; we are living in a huge big puzzle which has a start icon and we know there's end icon and finish icon too but we don't know where exactly and how we can reach them.

We do plan and work hard to implement our plans but, we are not always lucky to do so; sometimes we face an obstacle I won't say one obstacle but a number of obstacles, which sometimes pull us way back and sometimes take us from our right way so we simply deviation from the right way; and we feel lost, we don't know how to get back to the right track, but rarely we find our self in the right track BUT either far away of our target or our a serious huge obstacle is in there and keeps me away of my target. Knowing that is difficult to accept and even harder to comprehend especially when you don't have enough time to jeopardise and you just want to use every single minutes :(.

Life is too complicated, it's just a puzzle nasty unpredictable puzzle, which we live through, we may or may not achieve all our goals and dreams though we still fight to reach what we want and what we planned for. I'm having huge deal of Faith and hope, moreover believe that Allah will help me to go through what I planned for and all my wishes will be true very soon and I'll what I have to do is waiting for the right time
Tip of today: have faith and believe on Allah then yourself , and everything will be just fine
Good night bloggers
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Strange

Due to my sickness I didn't leave home this weekend, I was on bed all time suffering of fever not mentioning running nose and sore throat, but that's ok I still can deal with it. Today finally I saw the street after this weekend; I went to work, it wasn't bad day ; except my headache which is killing me since morning until now and I don't know how to stop it.

Today I was browsing amazon.com looking for nice gifts for my engaged friends and while I was doing that, I found my key I mean it I found my heart lost key. I knew it the moment I saw it, it was mine , it's pretty strange but I felt like I lost it long time ago and I can't even remember where and I just found it. It's not because it's jewellery or something like that nooo; it's something different very different.

I told my friend that I found my lost key; she thought I was joking while I wasn't I was serious very serious, somehow that key made me feel it's mine, the key of my heart ! Which I've been looking for since I was a kid" and I found him . I know that sounds crazy but believe me it's my key I'm very sure it's my key. It's old fashioned not wow but; it has that charm and warmth, which attracted me.
I still believe it's my key, and I lost it somewhere , maybe in different life, and finally I found it , I found my heart, the key of my heart and my soul .

Form knocking out headache to sugar bloggers, good night all