Unpredictable guest

I didn't sleep well last night, I spent my time crying over the phone with my best friend, she noticed how deep I got into this stupid job and she knew now what I meant when I said I'm in hell, I wasn't kidding or having fun, it was the truth. I asked her to tell me what should I do, I knew her answer and I expected that; I'm really afraid ... I feel I'm giving up everything, there's no use,, I just have to leave everything to God's willing.I couldn't sleep so, around 4:30 am I took one panadol night pill, because I really needed to. And I slept until 6:00 am and I woke up having red puffy eyes cuz I didn't sleep+ I was crying, and I walked like a drunk man, I can't control my steps because of that stupid pill which made me dizzy and sleepy. Generally I feel better today, I spent last night praying to God, and somehow I feel good and there's this inner satisfaction which provides me with strength.So, I came to work I thought it will be an ordinary day, until I checked my e-mail and there was one e-mail from my English literature professor, he sent a letter asking to see us his star students (me,Saf,Mimi). So I called Saf and told her she came to my office and we sent him and e-mail asking him to pass by my office after his appointment in the radiology section. And he came, I was shocked, actually both of us (me & Saf) he looked very very old, it seems he had hard time with cancer and looked at us and he said "look at my daughters they are grown up now, I can rest in peace now, I don't have to worry about you anymore" . I don't know why he gave me this impression that he's leaving or we are not gonna see him again !! I felt happy, It was unexpected and I still feel I'm dreaming that we met him again, though he didn't look healthy as before.One more thing, unexpected today too.. My best friend is pregnant :),, I'm very happy for her very very happy for her. I feel I'm the pregnant one not her heheheh...Tip of today: always remember that God is taking a good care of us, always stay focus because this happens once in ur life, the most important thing, maintain your relationship with your instructors and believe it or not, someday, you'll feel they were great ppl in your life.