I sent an e-mail to one of my friends today, asking for help to figure out a way to leave for a week or so and just to be away from here as far as I can and as soon as I can too. Actually that wasn’t very helpful but afriend tried to give me perfect places where I can feel peace and to be away from ppl and to find time for myself. I’m planning now for this I have to leave by the end of next week or max the week after, but all of this depends on my family if they gonna force me to take someone with me to help me during my trip that will be difficult, let’s hope I’m gonna go alone.
I have to disconnect myself from this ugly world, I’m not gonna take my laptop nor my BB. I’m thinking of isolated place or an island. I started searching in the internet for a natural resort but didn’t match what I’m thinking of, I don’t want nor need to network with strangers , I need peace and time to re-evaluate my current situation. I want to spend my time reading, writing short stories, swimming , jogging , and drawing ; nothing more than that. I might check if I can take diving lessons during my stay.
Today I went to the beach, I sat there beside the shore without saying a word I felt the beach understood me and how I feel, I tried to take deep breath in and out; then I closed my eyes and I promised myself I’m gonna think of anything . So I closed my eyes and I saw myself there in that cloud up there opening my eyes and looking upwards and my arms were stretched and stupidly I was listening to strange voice talking to me, I forced myself to open my eyes and I opened them, I wore my shoes and asked my mum to help me back; because my moment of peace weren’t effective as I thought.
Tip of today: don’t make someone a priority in your life while you are only an option. Always help you self to look at the other side of the fence even if there is nothing there, you never know what tomorrow will bring to you.
No comments:
Post a Comment