….Then he said Goodbye

I’m experiencing the most difficult times ever in my life these days, have you ever woke up and discover that your life
Has been turned upside down ?...... Yes that’s me ,,
Just couple of days ago I had a father but not anymore ,,, I was under his wing no matter how hard he was at me , still I was
Safe under his wing ,,but not anymore ,,,
Somehow , I wish its only a dream and I’ll wake up in any moment ,, I missed many things and I’ll be missing more important things
That I’d love to have it with my dad presence ,,
I’ve been thinking this morning, how can I get married without my dad ? how can I have my first kid named after him and without him in my life?
How can I face life, people and myself without my dad in my life??
Dad I’m sorry for everything I’ve done to you and I’m really sorry for each time you directed me to do something and I got mad ,, I’m really sorry
That I wasn’t thankful enough for you to have me in this life,,I’m very sorry I did lots of things I’m sure they wouldn’t satisfy you ,,
I’m really sorry for this guilt feeling, loneliness that increases every day, my sadness would cover the whole world if I released it ,,
Dad,, I don’t know how to live without you ,,how to be strong again ,,how to move forward without you next to me
I promise to accomplish all your dreams that you had to me , and the faith you had on me ,,I’ll keep it and make sure to never disappoint you
I wish you left while you are proud of me ,,,dad
Dad,,a word I’ll miss it the rest of my life,,dad I’m broken without you
With love
Your daughter