Don't know what to do

Sometimes I wake up and I convince myself I’m feeling well much better than before, but once I get into my office I start to feel miserable again and I hate this I really hate it , I’m still working on my stupid feelings and sensitivity to overcome what bothers me. I wish things were different, I wish I didn’t plan that much , I wish I didn’t give myself the chance to dream about many things, but I was stupid and I did all of them, I’m such a fool ! it feels like someone betrayed me , I don’t know what should I do , shall I forget or just forgive? Or just act normal !. my heart is wounded and I don’t feel its easy to forget that day, specially I’ve seen it and I knew it and I left while feeling not ok …
Somehow, I wish it’s only a nightmare and someday I’ll wake up and I know it’s not a dream ,,anyways
Have a good day bloggers