Lonely

I know I didn't write for so long, I've been busy and lots stuff were happening here and there, any ways here I am .
Recently I’ve been feeling lonely, I just discovered that no one understands me no one ,Even my mum whom I thought up to certain limit will understands me, but I was mistaken.I feel terribly lonely , I can’t discuss my issues with anyone, I’m keeping everything to myself
I feel even when I think that I have to act crazy, no one gets it why ! I don’t know, everyone wants to make sure they are locking me inside this tight small box where there’s no room to move and I don’t want to be there, and someday I’ll go crazy and break all these walls and
Will do whatever comes to my head. If you want to tell me that my family cares about me I stopped believing that since I notice that the discrimination won’t stop and what’s fine for the little sister to do is forbidden for the oldest one that makes huge crack between me and
Them and our relation, I’m fed up sorry to say this but I can’t live with such anymore, either they be fair with everyone , otherwise, I’ll just shoot myself and get rid of this stupidity I’ve been living with!